So its been quite long i've visited this page one of my new year resolutions should be to visit this frequently!!!

Stay alert.... something's always lurking around to get your peace!! ;)

Let it go...........

Find your solution...

Get confused....

The Flood....

Apologies for putting everything at once or nothing for a long time.... But then the way i write is such.... whenever and however it comes to your head... not wanting to lose the moment or the thread of thought i just pen it down wherever and however and forget about it... and then days later here it where it appears all at once... :)  so this dates from Sixteenth of March ,2010 when i was being engulfed in the mighty fumes of sleep and decided to write ......

"Its like bees start hovering around you and suddenly they overpower and you start buzzing along……. …u reach a state of trans and all the noisy powers of the world cant pull u back but its that occasional single cutting chai or may be your neighbor’s pat on the back or a sudden meeting called that suddenly jolts you back… ….back into this cruel ruthless world…………………. And the bees disappear…zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz"

Have been trying to put up something about that amazing walk in the pines we had in Kodai but wonder when time will permit or rather when i'll get my lazy self to do it.... ;)

Linger

Today while at work,trying to find something completely different i came across something i'd written a while back( while at work :P )

I can see those French windows… as low as my ankles……Walking slowly around the house on the soft green grass… the clouds playing hide and seek…. The softness of the wind and the moistness of the clouds make me shiver till my soul but it feels like renewal, purification of every pore in me……

The road glides down steeply embraced at it edges by the ivy…… so madly in love with the oak hedge by the road….. No one can tell the difference now….

The purple flowers, shaped like stars are scattered are far as I can look……. You could say its silent or you could hear the music in the air like I hear it in my head……..

Its gets colder by every tick in the clock ……. Sometimes when the clouds scatter I can see that small wooden house on the hill behind… I can see that silhouette besides the window…. That outline.. makes that perfect picture even better…..

Soon, it’s going to be dark although I would hate it that way…. I breathe every pore of light I can till that black sets in…..

Blank or Chaos.... Which one?

What do you do when you have an extremely crucial decision to make?
Do you follow your heart, do you follow your head, or do you just let someone decide for your sake?
Even if you follow your heart you dont see or hear clearly what it wants,
Your head on the other hand with its stupid conclusions & outcome haunts...
You often panic and start looking around desperately for someone to help you,
Someone who just leads you by your heart & hand, taking you out of this chaos to somewhere fresh and new....
Its really dark where you are right now,
You've tried hard enough to think, to act, to take a decision somehow......
But its all in vain, it all miserably fails,
You walk for miles and miles and end up returning to the same trail...

Why is it so blank, why does it scare?
What happens if you move ahead? what will it be like out there?
What will you lose? what magnitude?
Will it be cheers or solitude?

But that is not what baffles for now,
"Move Ahead"!!! Which way and how???
Surrounded by a wall so tight,
You cant even breathe no matter how much you fight.......

Nothing...................Nothing....................................Still zilch..........................

What do you do exactly when you have an extremely crucial decision to make?

and there it is again.....

.....................Conflict

wonder.... think.....ummmmmm...... who should I suggest to lay low and keep out of it????

the head or the heart!!!!!

what does everyone else do??

A part of me called didu......

For you my sister dearest…..(a welcome to my blog)

You were the wall I leaned against as a kid,

You were the shadow that walked with me when mine hid…

No matter how much you showed you dint care,

How much you bullied me in despair

You were that room where I could go hide

And could always turn my troubles down upside….

After all these years of growing up and all,

Believe me my sister dearest, you’re still that same WALL!!

 A monstrous hug and all my love…